Blood Work is Good

This is just a quick update to let you all know my blood work all came back today and everything was within the normal range for pregnancy so there’s no evidence of HELLP at this time. Phew! I’m so relieved! Thank you for all your comments and prayers yesterday. I had a crazy day so haven’t had a chance to reply to all of you yet or read any of your posts from today, but I will soon! Lots of love and hugs <3 Here are a few pins about HELLP I found on pinterest the other night when I couldn’t sleep…    

20 Weeks! And Letting the World Know, AKA Instagram and Facebook

Before I begin, I wanted to send out a prayer to my RPL/IF sisters who are having a hard week. For those of you who have just learned of a loss, failed cycle or BFN, or are waiting on test results and trying to find answers, my heart goes out to you and I am praying for your hurt to stop and for blessings and joy to come to you soon. A Calm Persistence, Lady Love and Baby Dust, and Spirit Baby Come Home are a few amazing ladies who are especially on my mind today, but my heart reaches out to all of you. Please God, please bring all these amazing ladies their miracles soon. To anyone who just can’t look at pregnancy updates right now, please know I completely understand. I may be expecting now and have gotten good news this week, but I remember the other side of this all too well and don’t ever want to cause any of you pain. So please feel free to sign off here. * * ** WARNING: Baby update to follow * * * * 20 Weeks! We’re 20 weeks today, and have made it to the half way point!…Continue reading 20 Weeks! And Letting the World Know, AKA Instagram and Facebook

Anatomy Scan Results Are In!

The anatomy scan results are in and all is good with baby. Huge sigh of relief!!!ย  Here’s the message from my doctor: “I just wanted to let you know that I have reviewed the ultrasound report of the baby and everything looks normal and healthy. This is good news. The baby is developing nicely and the cervix and the placenta are normal. Things are moving forward nicely. I am looking forward to seeing you soon.” I thought I was past this, but I started to cry as soon as I read the above message and kept thanking God over and over again. Miracles do happen. They really do. We still have a long way to go, but this is incredible news. Remember when I first posted this? It was in March at the start of the cycle I had right before the cycle when I became pregnant. I just had to re-post this today ๐Ÿ™‚

Anatomy Scan Done But No Answers Yet

We had the big anatomy scan today. It went well… I think. This is the first scan we’ve had that wasn’t done by our doctor or at least in the obstetrics department and didn’t get the results right away. Due to the technical nature of all the measurements, it had to be done at radiology on one of their higher quality machines and all the results have to be read by a radiologist for accuracy. This is great, but it meant that we had a technician taking all the measurements and although she was very friendly and sweet, she wasn’t allowed to tell us anything. Not so great. The good news is I didn’t pee my pants. I only had to wait in the waiting room for a few minutes past my appointment time and she took pity on me pretty quickly. She took the critical measurements first that required my bladder to be full for greater visibility like the placenta and spine, and then she let me go pee. The rest of the scan was done with the comfort of an empty bladder ๐Ÿ™‚ The entire scan took about 45 minutes so I’m really thankful she didn’t make me…Continue reading Anatomy Scan Done But No Answers Yet

Quick Update

This is just a super quick update to let you all know our appointment with Dr. S went well today. Little man was really active and looked great. We’ll know for sure after our anatomy scan, but she said everything on her machine looked just perfect. Those were her exact words “everything looks perfect” ๐Ÿ™‚ Phew! Just when I thought I was feeling more relaxed, fear and anxiety reared their ugly heads again last night and prevented me from sleeping a wink. So hearing her say, “he looks perfect” was such a relief. Fingers crossed and lots and lots of prayers that she’s right and all is just perfect at our anatomy scan too. The scan is on Monday afternoon at Radiology. Dr. S said the technician will likely not say too much to us about the results, but that she will get the report within a day or two and that she should have the results for me by Wednesday. So… we shall see. Eek! I’m so nervous. Please, please let everything be okay! Another concern I have, though this is much less important, is with the scan itself. I got a letter in the mail from the Radiology…Continue reading Quick Update

18 Weeks

It’s hard to believe, but I’m 18 weeks pregnant today! It’s even harder to believe I’m only 2 weeks away from reaching the half way point. Where did the time go? With each week that passes, I begin to feel a bit more relaxed with this pregnancy. We’re still 10 weeks away from my big milestone, the 28 week mark so I still have some anxiety, but it’s much better then it was. Reaching 28 weeks is a big milestone for me because I was just shy of 28 weeks when I had to have an emergency c-section with Holdon. At 27 1/2 weeks it all came crashing down. The 28 week point will be the most pregnant I have ever been. Up until now, I hadn’t allowed myself to think that far ahead, but I’m starting to look to it now and have hope that it will be different this time. My SIL and a good friend want to throw me a baby shower on October 18th. I’ll be 29 weeks that day. Both my Mom and my MIL will be visiting along with my SIL at that time, so it’s a really good time to have it. A…Continue reading 18 Weeks

16 Weeks

We’re 16 Weeks pregnant today! I’m super excited, but have also been feeling pretty awful today. Last night, I woke up in the middle of the night feeling pretty nauseous, and it has lasted most of day. I’m feeling a bit better tonight, thank goodness. I have no idea where this came from, but guess nausea can still happen in the second trimester. I am not complaining, but that will teach me for feeling nervous that the nausea had subsided and being worried that I was feeling too good! Anyway, now for my 16 Week progress report… How far along?ย  16 Weeks Total weight gain? 3 lbs Maternity clothes? I’m kind of 50/50 on this. I’m wearing some maternity tops, but still getting away with regular clothes for the most part. Yoga pants/shorts, leggings, and jersey skirts and dresses are definitely my go to clothes right now ๐Ÿ™‚ I was still able to button my jeans the last time I tried them on, but that was about 2 weeks ago. I have a feeling I’ll need my belly band for those now until I’m really ready for maternity jeans. Stretch marks? Not yet. I’ve adapted/perfected my homemade belly butter recipe…Continue reading 16 Weeks

15 Weeks 3 Days

First of all, thank you everyone for all your kind words and support over my last post. I was reallyย in a funk about the anniversary of Holdon’s death coming up on July 20th and feeling kind of down, but I’m doing so much better today. I’m sure this Sunday is still going to be pretty hard, but I’m feeling much better about the day now then I was last weekend.   Okay, now for a quick update on today’s doctor appointment. Feel free to sign off here if pregnancy updates are too hard to read right now.   ***Pregnancy Update Below***   We had our regular followup appointment with Dr. S. today and it went really well! After a brief conversation about how we’re doing, she got down to business and did an ultrasound and all is good with baby ๐Ÿ™‚ I was so relieved! I had managed to work myself up into quite a ball of worry again, and felt the tension leave my body as soon as our little guy came up on the screen. He is so big and really active! Dr. S asked me if I was feeling any movement yet because he was really moving…Continue reading 15 Weeks 3 Days

One Year Anniversary of Blogging

Last night I got this message from WordPress:   I can’t believe it’s been an entire year since I first began this blog and all that has happened. Naturally, getting this message from WordPress caused me to reflect on things a bit… Exactly one year ago, I had just suffered my fourth lost in three years. We were mourning the death of my infant son due to prematurity as a result of HELLP Syndrome, followed by 3 back to back miscarriages. I had hit an all time low and was tired of living in silence about it. I was about to embark on IVF and PGD to test our embryos in hopes of preventing another loss, and also just days after that first post, I had the 3 year anniversary of Holdon’s death to deal with. To say I was in a really bad place at that time, is a bit of an understatement. Little did I know that in the next year, our journey with IVF with PGD would fail and while I don’t regret doing it, it was a lot of money for nothing in the end; then we’d cautiously start trying on our own again, only to…Continue reading One Year Anniversary of Blogging

Quick Update: 14 Weeks 4 Days

I don’t have that much new to report on, but just wanted to let you all know I’m still here and doing okay. I’m 14 Weeks 4 Days pregnant today. It’s so hard to believe I’ve made it this far! So far all is going well. I’m feeling a lot more like myself these days. I’m still feeling a bit dizzy and light headed, but it’s not as often as a couple weeks ago. The nausea is mostly gone now too. Other than the occasional headache, I’m feeling pretty good these days. Which of course terrifies me! I know this is normal for the second trimester, but it’s hard not to worry. My last scan was at 11W4D. I think I’ll feel better after my next OB appt and scan on Tuesday. I hate that I’m still living from appointment to appointment right now and wonder when and if I’ll ever let go and really relax, but it’s just so hard. Tuesday can’t come soon enough! In other news, tarakay21.wordpress.com and myperfectbreakdown.com, the bloggers I invited to participate in the blog hop, posted their blog hop posts this week. If you haven’t had a chance to read them yet, check…Continue reading Quick Update: 14 Weeks 4 Days