I contemplated writing a post tonight since I don’t have any updates, but I just wanted to take a moment to thank everyone for all your words of encouragement and hope. I was really feeling scared and sad yesterday, but your support really helped bring me out of my funk and renewed my hope.

I went out for another long walk today because it really does help clear my head, and because even though I’ve been living here in Southern California for 6 years now, I don’t think I will ever get used the fact that its beautiful and sunny outside in December. Sometimes I miss snow at this time of the year, but then I hear reports of weather being -30 Celsius back home, and I don’t miss it so much. So today on my walk, I took in the smell of fresh cut grass, felt the sun on my skin, and stopped to literally smell (and take pictures of) the flowers, and I thought about all I was thankful for. Foremost on that list is my hubby, who I get to pick up at the airport in 3 hours, and I’m beyond excited to see; our family, especially my Mom who has been sending me words of encouragement every day (even when I’m grouchy and snap at her); good friends, some of whom have been my lifeline quite literally during this entire journey; and all of you, my new friends in the blog world, you are all an incredibly strong and inspiring group of women that I am honored to have gotten know and feel so thankful to have your support.

Today as I walked and thought about all of you, I felt rejuvenated and hopeful. I should get the results of the PGD of our final four embryos tomorrow. I’m still very anxious about it, but as many of you have pointed out, we have done all we can do, and have already gotten through many of the steps in this process with really good outcomes. We are now nearing the final stage, and the results are out of my hands. I just have to believe and have faith.