This is a weird post for me to write as I am currently one of them, but I had to write about the explosion of pregnancies and babies happening right now. It doesn’t seem to just be happening to me. Others in our blogging community and also in my rainbow and unicorns mom Facebook group have been talking about it happening in their circle of friends too. It seems like where ever we go, and even when we’ve gotten through it and have our rainbow and unicorn babies either through a really lucky egg, ART, donor eggs, surrogacy and/or adoption, we’re still affected by it. When I had my last miscarriage right before this pregnancy, I must have seen 6 pregnancy announcements or knew of several women who were already pregnant and expecting their second or third baby. It hit me hard. At the time of that last miscarriage, I thought my DOR was getting the best of me and I was going into premature menopause and I truly began to think that I’d never be able to give the miracle toddler a living sibling. Then I became pregnant again with this pregnancy. I found out I was pregnant again…Continue reading April (Baby) Showers – It’s Freaking Babypalooza
Tag: Pregnancy After Recurrent Pragnancy Loss and Infant Loss
Appointment with the Perinatologist
This is just a quick update about my appointment with the specialist on Monday. I am relieved and happy to share that there is low risk of placenta accreta! The placenta is higher up so it’s nowhere near the incision from my standard c-section with Archer, and it’s only partially covering the incision from my classical c-section from my delivery with Holdon. It’s technically an anterior placenta, but it’s leaning towards the side a bit so fortunately only a portion of it is covering the classical incision, and the part that is, is not growing into the scarring at this time and doesn’t look like it’s going to over the coming weeks. This is such a relief!! I knew deep down that I would be okay with whatever we found out as long as the delivery would be safe and baby girl would be safe, but now that I have this good news, I have to admit that I really was afraid for the worst and was dreading the prospect of losing my uterus. I knew that if there was any growth into the scarring and/or my uterus, they would not have taken any chances and a hysterectomy would have…Continue reading Appointment with the Perinatologist
Worrying for Nothing?
I had a bit of a scare the past week, but hopefully everything is okay! Since last Monday, I’ve been feeling some pressure/pain in my upper abdomen on and off. If you’ve read my page about my first pregnancy, you’ll know that pain in my upper abdomen was my first symptom that I was really sick and had HELLP Syndrome. I had never had heartburn before and mistook the symptom for heartburn for almost 2 weeks. It wasn’t until after my emergency c-section that the doctors told me that pain in the upper abdomen is a symptom of HELLP and a sign that my liver was shutting down. So, when I started to feel discomfort in my upper abdomen this week, I kind of started freaking out. My husband suggested we should go to emergency, but it eased and pretty much went away after I laid down. I decided to see how I felt the next day. If it persisted, I would call my doctor, but since it was gone when I woke up, I figured it was just another side effect of the lovely indigestion I’ve been experiencing lately. I felt reassured that it was an isolated incident and…Continue reading Worrying for Nothing?
Anatomy Scan Results Are In!
The anatomy scan results are in and all is good with baby. Huge sigh of relief!!! Here’s the message from my doctor: “I just wanted to let you know that I have reviewed the ultrasound report of the baby and everything looks normal and healthy. This is good news. The baby is developing nicely and the cervix and the placenta are normal. Things are moving forward nicely. I am looking forward to seeing you soon.” I thought I was past this, but I started to cry as soon as I read the above message and kept thanking God over and over again. Miracles do happen. They really do. We still have a long way to go, but this is incredible news. Remember when I first posted this? It was in March at the start of the cycle I had right before the cycle when I became pregnant. I just had to re-post this today 🙂
Anatomy Scan Done But No Answers Yet
We had the big anatomy scan today. It went well… I think. This is the first scan we’ve had that wasn’t done by our doctor or at least in the obstetrics department and didn’t get the results right away. Due to the technical nature of all the measurements, it had to be done at radiology on one of their higher quality machines and all the results have to be read by a radiologist for accuracy. This is great, but it meant that we had a technician taking all the measurements and although she was very friendly and sweet, she wasn’t allowed to tell us anything. Not so great. The good news is I didn’t pee my pants. I only had to wait in the waiting room for a few minutes past my appointment time and she took pity on me pretty quickly. She took the critical measurements first that required my bladder to be full for greater visibility like the placenta and spine, and then she let me go pee. The rest of the scan was done with the comfort of an empty bladder 🙂 The entire scan took about 45 minutes so I’m really thankful she didn’t make me…Continue reading Anatomy Scan Done But No Answers Yet
Quick Update
This is just a super quick update to let you all know our appointment with Dr. S went well today. Little man was really active and looked great. We’ll know for sure after our anatomy scan, but she said everything on her machine looked just perfect. Those were her exact words “everything looks perfect” 🙂 Phew! Just when I thought I was feeling more relaxed, fear and anxiety reared their ugly heads again last night and prevented me from sleeping a wink. So hearing her say, “he looks perfect” was such a relief. Fingers crossed and lots and lots of prayers that she’s right and all is just perfect at our anatomy scan too. The scan is on Monday afternoon at Radiology. Dr. S said the technician will likely not say too much to us about the results, but that she will get the report within a day or two and that she should have the results for me by Wednesday. So… we shall see. Eek! I’m so nervous. Please, please let everything be okay! Another concern I have, though this is much less important, is with the scan itself. I got a letter in the mail from the Radiology…Continue reading Quick Update
18 Weeks
It’s hard to believe, but I’m 18 weeks pregnant today! It’s even harder to believe I’m only 2 weeks away from reaching the half way point. Where did the time go? With each week that passes, I begin to feel a bit more relaxed with this pregnancy. We’re still 10 weeks away from my big milestone, the 28 week mark so I still have some anxiety, but it’s much better then it was. Reaching 28 weeks is a big milestone for me because I was just shy of 28 weeks when I had to have an emergency c-section with Holdon. At 27 1/2 weeks it all came crashing down. The 28 week point will be the most pregnant I have ever been. Up until now, I hadn’t allowed myself to think that far ahead, but I’m starting to look to it now and have hope that it will be different this time. My SIL and a good friend want to throw me a baby shower on October 18th. I’ll be 29 weeks that day. Both my Mom and my MIL will be visiting along with my SIL at that time, so it’s a really good time to have it. A…Continue reading 18 Weeks
16 Weeks
We’re 16 Weeks pregnant today! I’m super excited, but have also been feeling pretty awful today. Last night, I woke up in the middle of the night feeling pretty nauseous, and it has lasted most of day. I’m feeling a bit better tonight, thank goodness. I have no idea where this came from, but guess nausea can still happen in the second trimester. I am not complaining, but that will teach me for feeling nervous that the nausea had subsided and being worried that I was feeling too good! Anyway, now for my 16 Week progress report… How far along? 16 Weeks Total weight gain? 3 lbs Maternity clothes? I’m kind of 50/50 on this. I’m wearing some maternity tops, but still getting away with regular clothes for the most part. Yoga pants/shorts, leggings, and jersey skirts and dresses are definitely my go to clothes right now 🙂 I was still able to button my jeans the last time I tried them on, but that was about 2 weeks ago. I have a feeling I’ll need my belly band for those now until I’m really ready for maternity jeans. Stretch marks? Not yet. I’ve adapted/perfected my homemade belly butter recipe…Continue reading 16 Weeks
15 Weeks 3 Days
First of all, thank you everyone for all your kind words and support over my last post. I was really in a funk about the anniversary of Holdon’s death coming up on July 20th and feeling kind of down, but I’m doing so much better today. I’m sure this Sunday is still going to be pretty hard, but I’m feeling much better about the day now then I was last weekend. Okay, now for a quick update on today’s doctor appointment. Feel free to sign off here if pregnancy updates are too hard to read right now. ***Pregnancy Update Below*** We had our regular followup appointment with Dr. S. today and it went really well! After a brief conversation about how we’re doing, she got down to business and did an ultrasound and all is good with baby 🙂 I was so relieved! I had managed to work myself up into quite a ball of worry again, and felt the tension leave my body as soon as our little guy came up on the screen. He is so big and really active! Dr. S asked me if I was feeling any movement yet because he was really moving…Continue reading 15 Weeks 3 Days
One Year Anniversary of Blogging
Last night I got this message from WordPress: I can’t believe it’s been an entire year since I first began this blog and all that has happened. Naturally, getting this message from WordPress caused me to reflect on things a bit… Exactly one year ago, I had just suffered my fourth lost in three years. We were mourning the death of my infant son due to prematurity as a result of HELLP Syndrome, followed by 3 back to back miscarriages. I had hit an all time low and was tired of living in silence about it. I was about to embark on IVF and PGD to test our embryos in hopes of preventing another loss, and also just days after that first post, I had the 3 year anniversary of Holdon’s death to deal with. To say I was in a really bad place at that time, is a bit of an understatement. Little did I know that in the next year, our journey with IVF with PGD would fail and while I don’t regret doing it, it was a lot of money for nothing in the end; then we’d cautiously start trying on our own again, only to…Continue reading One Year Anniversary of Blogging