October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month

Last year I posted this post: October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, and I just wanted to share the link again this this year in case some of you are not aware of the significance of October to pregnancy and infant loss awareness. Also, I just wanted to remind everyone that October 15th is International Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, and that at 7pm across the world, parents will be lighting candles in all time zones in remembrance of their lost angels by participating in the Wave of Light. “A wife who loses a husband is called a widow. A husband who loses a wife is called a widower. A child who loses his parents is called an orphan. There is no word for a parent who loses a child. That’s how awful the loss is.” ― Jay Neugeboren, An Orphan

Quick Update – 26 Weeks 2 Days

Today I’m 26 weeks 2 days and only 5 days away from starting my third trimester! I can’t believe it! We had another OB appointment today and all was perfect 🙂 Little man is still measuring ahead and starting to get some super cute, chubby cheeks that we can actually see on the regular non 3D ultrasound. In fact he’s got quite a lot of cute baby fat everywhere now and is measuring almost a full 2 weeks ahead. It’s no wonder I’m looking and feeling so huge these days. I feel like I have to hold onto my belly while I’m doing my prenatal exercises because it’s starting to get heavy! I can’t imagine how big I’m going to be after these last 3 months! The other major thing that happened today is we booked our tentative c-section date. As of right now, it’s scheduled for Dec 30th. For some reason, my doctor’s office goes by the LMP for dating even though my ultrasounds have all been showing baby consistently ahead and they even told me my due date changed to January 3rd at one of my early appointments so that’s what I’ve been going with. And now, as…Continue reading Quick Update – 26 Weeks 2 Days

One Lovely Blog Award

This morning I woke up feeling very humbled and honored because I have been nominated for the One Lovely Blog Award by four of my amazing blogging sisters: My Perfect Breakdown, Spirit Baby Come Home, Infertility U Suck, and Twelve Week Eternities! Thank you so much to each of you for thinking of me and for your continued love and support. Each of you and your blogs are the true definition of lovely. I honestly don’t know what I would do without these amazing women and the entire IF/RPL community <3 The Rules / Guidelines 1. Thank the person who has nominated you. Provide a link to his/her blog. 2. List the rules. 3. Include 7 facts about yourself. 4. Nominate 15 other bloggers and let them know that they have been nominated. 5. Display the award logo and follow the blogger who nominated you. Here are 7 facts about myself: I think most of you know this, but although I have been living in the US for 7 years now, I am and always will be a Canadian girl at heart. I was inspired to point this out by My Perfect Breakdown because of her comment about spelling words…Continue reading One Lovely Blog Award

24 Weeks – V Day!

Today I am 24 Weeks, 2 Days and we made it to V Day (viability day) as Ashley from Bs and Babies put it so perfectly! Every milestone we reach is a huge relief and also a huge shock. I simply can’t believe we’ve made it this far! And even more shocking, that little man is measuring perfectly and I have no signs of any re-occurrence of HELLP. I am constantly praying this continues to be the case, but also feeling so much faith that it will. My doctor told us at our last appointment, that everything looks different (good different) with this pregnancy and with our little guy then it did when we were pregnant with Holdon, and my immediate response was that everything feels different to me too. Praying this is all a good sign! I’m 3 1/2 weeks from the point when I delivered Holdon. 3 1/2 weeks. That’s it. When I look back on it and think about where I’m at right now, it’s unimaginable to me that I delivered a Holdon so soon. And on top of it all, the HELLP syndrome caused him to be severely growth restricted so he measured more around 23-24…Continue reading 24 Weeks – V Day!

Calling Out to All My Blogging Friends

I’m reaching out to all of you to ask for prayers and thoughts for one of our fellow bloggers: andthewindscreamsmary.blogspot.com This amazing lady has been a constant support to me while going through so much herself, and she could really use some support back right now. She is about to go through her second second trimester loss in back to back pregnancies in just 7 months. It’s absolutely unthinkable what she has had to go through in such a short time. Please check out her blog and send her any love and support you can. Thank you so much. Hugs and love to all of you <3    

Long Overdue Update

I apologize to all of you who have been asking how I’m doing and not writing this update sooner! I have been wanting to sit down and write this update for over a week, but between work, and everything else going on right now, I just haven’t had the energy to stay on the computer long enough to write an update and I hate writing updates from my phone. Below are a few highlights from past few weeks. Sorry in advance for how long this post is! Today’s Appointment With Our OB We had another appointment with Dr. S today. Everything is great. We had another ultrasound and baby is still measuring about a week ahead and now weighs about 1lb 10oz. This weight is a big milestone for us because Holdon only weighed 1lb 8oz when he was born at nearly 28 weeks and I’m only 23W4D today, so the fact that we have now surpassed that weight and so soon is huge! The rest of the appointment was pretty basic with just going over questions and concerns. The main thing we discussed was the strange abdominal pain I had a few weeks ago. It’s still there, but not…Continue reading Long Overdue Update

Blood Work is Good

This is just a quick update to let you all know my blood work all came back today and everything was within the normal range for pregnancy so there’s no evidence of HELLP at this time. Phew! I’m so relieved! Thank you for all your comments and prayers yesterday. I had a crazy day so haven’t had a chance to reply to all of you yet or read any of your posts from today, but I will soon! Lots of love and hugs <3 Here are a few pins about HELLP I found on pinterest the other night when I couldn’t sleep…    

Worrying for Nothing?

I had a bit of a scare the past week, but hopefully everything is okay! Since last Monday, I’ve been feeling some pressure/pain in my upper abdomen on and off. If you’ve read my page about my first pregnancy, you’ll know that pain in my upper abdomen was my first symptom that I was really sick and had HELLP Syndrome. I had never had heartburn before and mistook the symptom for heartburn for almost 2 weeks. It wasn’t until after my emergency c-section that the doctors told me that pain in the upper abdomen is a symptom of HELLP and a sign that my liver was shutting down. So, when I started to feel discomfort in my upper abdomen this week, I kind of started freaking out. My husband suggested we should go to emergency, but it eased and pretty much went away after I laid down. I decided to see how I felt the next day. If it persisted, I would call my doctor, but since it was gone when I woke up, I figured it was just another side effect of the lovely indigestion I’ve been experiencing lately. I felt reassured that it was an isolated incident and…Continue reading Worrying for Nothing?

20 Weeks! And Letting the World Know, AKA Instagram and Facebook

Before I begin, I wanted to send out a prayer to my RPL/IF sisters who are having a hard week. For those of you who have just learned of a loss, failed cycle or BFN, or are waiting on test results and trying to find answers, my heart goes out to you and I am praying for your hurt to stop and for blessings and joy to come to you soon. A Calm Persistence, Lady Love and Baby Dust, and Spirit Baby Come Home are a few amazing ladies who are especially on my mind today, but my heart reaches out to all of you. Please God, please bring all these amazing ladies their miracles soon. To anyone who just can’t look at pregnancy updates right now, please know I completely understand. I may be expecting now and have gotten good news this week, but I remember the other side of this all too well and don’t ever want to cause any of you pain. So please feel free to sign off here. * * ** WARNING: Baby update to follow * * * * 20 Weeks! We’re 20 weeks today, and have made it to the half way point!…Continue reading 20 Weeks! And Letting the World Know, AKA Instagram and Facebook

Anatomy Scan Results Are In!

The anatomy scan results are in and all is good with baby. Huge sigh of relief!!!  Here’s the message from my doctor: “I just wanted to let you know that I have reviewed the ultrasound report of the baby and everything looks normal and healthy. This is good news. The baby is developing nicely and the cervix and the placenta are normal. Things are moving forward nicely. I am looking forward to seeing you soon.” I thought I was past this, but I started to cry as soon as I read the above message and kept thanking God over and over again. Miracles do happen. They really do. We still have a long way to go, but this is incredible news. Remember when I first posted this? It was in March at the start of the cycle I had right before the cycle when I became pregnant. I just had to re-post this today 🙂