Today is cycle day 1, thank you! I started to get a little nervous yesterday, when AF didn’t show up, but one day late is fine! I’ll take it! I have an appointment with Dr. J tomorrow to do a baseline ultrasound to make sure everything looks good before we proceed. If all is good, we’ll start preparing me for my FET (frozen embryo transfer). Fingers crossed!

At this point, I know I’ll begin taking estrogen orally and start using progesterone suppositories. These will help thicken my uterine lining and get me ready for the transfer. I think it will also help prevent me from ovulating so we can just go straight to the transfer, but I’m not completely certain how all that will work yet. I already have the meds read to go, I just need to know when I’ll be starting. I will discuss this along with the complete plan with Dr. J at my appointment tomorrow. When I spoke with him last month, he said we would need about 18 days to build my lining to the right thickness for the transfer, so if all goes according to plan (please, please), then we should good to do the transfer in about 3 weeks! Oh please let my ultrasound be good tomorrow so we can finally do this! And please, please let this be it!

I’ll write more tomorrow after my appointment once I know the complete plan. I know there’s still a lot that can go wrong, but I’m so excited! If all goes well, I’ll be pregnant in 3 weeks! I just feel in my heart that our little embryo girl is the one!

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Painting Update: Last week, I showed a progress detail of my painting and said I hoped to finish it by my birthday as a gift to myself. Well that just didn’t happen. I was too busy the last week to get any painting done, but I’m back on track this week so my new goal is to finish it by the eve of my transfer. I think this is a more reasonable deadline, and I can’t think of a better day to finish it by. The painting is a visual representation of my memories and love for my son Holdon and my emotional roller coaster of his birth and death and all the ups and downs from my subsequent pregnancies and losses. I think finishing this painting will be a great way to seal all of these memories and celebrate my love for my lost children while also moving forward.